Holy shit. This hit me.
So a few weeks back I sent copy edits to my editor with time to spare so we could meet the deadline of March 23. That day came and went, still no reply except an auto email to say they were under the weather. Finally got a reply a few days ago, and I quickly did the things needed doing and sent off to publisher. I was annoyed, because deadlines are deadlines and wtf. ANYWAY. Just found out a few mins ago that the reason they were 'under the weather' they had the fucking virus!!!
This what they had to say:
I’m on day 16 of this and it’s still hanging on but I’m not as ill as I was even just a few days ago. It’s getting better, just…so…slowly. I feel like I will never not have a cough. I feel like I will never breathe normally again. And I’m afraid my running days might be over.
I don’t know where I picked this up from. I’d been staying inside, only going out to shop for food. I work from home. I went to no social gatherings. I didn’t invite people over. I sanitized everything. Somehow I still got it and I can’t point to a definitive source. This is the sickest I’ve ever been. I went to the ER twice because I was having much difficulty breathing. I was afraid to go to sleep for fear I’d stop breathing overnight. But I was so exhausted I fell asleep anyway.
Day after day, I felt completely wiped out. The first week was the worst. For 5 straight days, I couldn’t speak. Not from a sore throat but from lack of air. I didn’t have enough air to even form words. If I tried to talk, I felt like I was suffocating. Because I was. I had thought my lungs were one of the strongest parts of my body. I’m a runner. I used to run every day. To suddenly have the strongest part of you turn into the weakest is unbelievably scary.
I am grateful to still be alive. There were times I didn’t think I would be. I’m still here, though my energy is not 100%. I’m still breathing, though not without regular coughing fits. And I’m still hopeful that my lungs haven’t suffered permanent damage. Right now it feels like they might never be the same. But time will tell.